A couple from my freshman dorm got married in January. They hid the fact from their parents and everyone else until only recently. They’re young and in love and they know that they want to spend the rest of their lives with each other.

All of this is incredibly weird to me. I’m now acquainted with at least four married couples about my age — counting just those people with whom I have some kind of personal connection (though I didn’t know this particular couple too well). And two of my close friends each plan to get married to their girlfriends the summer after graduation, not two years from now.

I’m only twenty. Do I want to get married? Yes. Would I want to do it now? I don’t know.

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Does this path have heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn’t it is of no use. Both paths lead nowhere; but one has heart, the other doesn’t. One makes for a joyful journey; as long as you follow it, you are one with it. The other will make you curse your life. One makes you strong; the other weakens you.

- don Juan

In the past week, I’ve gotten sick, gotten well, finished a problem set and started another one, written down eighteen dreams including four lucid dreams, practiced lots of wing chun, gotten a great parking spot, started the Kamana nature study program, and had some great times with friends. For the first time, I think I really understand what it means to be “in the flow.” The little details of my everyday life seemed to fit into each other almost perfectly. Every action felt connected to my attitude and my feelings on a fundamental level.

The story of this feeling of universal connection started this last summer, when I totally lost it.

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