On the day of the wedding, I actually felt like I was drunk.
I’ve never been drunk in my life. Once, a bit tipsy, but never full-on drunk. But what people say about being drunk — that everything seems a lot more fun, that you can do things that you would normally be scared or embarrassed of doing, etc. — well, that’s how I kind of look at myself the way I was on the day of my wedding.
I would very much like to be able to integrate this life-affirming, expansive, fun state of consciousness into myself without having to use anything external, without chemical crutches. It took my wedding, and the presence and affirmation of my close friends, to get me there without alcohol. But it felt damn good, and it was really fun. No wonder people get drunk.
